It doesn't mean I don't think of you all, or thank God for all of you. I've just been overwhelmed with . . . everything. A lot of good things are happening with my book YAHSHUA'S BRIDGE which is now available. So, I've been busy with that. But also with doc appointments and just feeling tired. I'm looking forward to seeing Dr. Brown again. I was my "old self" when he treated me, and I want to feel good again.
I finished radiation a week ago Tuesday, and it completely wiped me out. I had yucky side-effects when I wasn't supposed to have any--I won't give you the details, e-hem. This tells me that chemo is NOT a good idea since it would be 5 times worse. Thankfully, my doc hasn't brought up chemo--maybe because I already told him "NO WAY, I don't want to do it" when he did bring it up (I wasn't that harsh; but I was pretty clear about it via our nurse coordinator).
Anyway, it's nice to know I can actually "read my body." I told him before the radiation that I really didn't think I could handle the chemo, or recover from it. And after seeing how I've reacted to radiation, I know I was right. If I wasn't supposed to have any side-effects from the radiation, and the chemo is worse, then there's no way I can handle chemo right now.
I should be going to see Dr. Brown at the end of this week or the beginning of next. He's supposed to call tomorrow morning.
Anyway, enough about that.
I wanted to write to you all about crying myself to sleep (lol, an even "better topic!"). But that usually occurred when I was supposed to be TRYING to go to sleep. So, I didn't get up to write. I just can't count how often I've cried myself to sleep. It amazes me. There were other things I wanted to write about, but I've just been too tired. And I'm tired now, so I think I'm gonna end.