Hellllooooooooo! Is anyone there? If you are, as you know, I'm hardly ever on my blog these days. Ever since I got better, I started homeschooling, and it's hard to find the time and the energy to keep up with anything, let alone my blog.
But you know what? I miss sharing my thoughts. I miss hearing from my readers. I miss just rambling on my blog like I used to do so often. It happens a lot that I go to bed and think of some "amazing" thing ("yeah, right!") to share on my blog, but I'm just too tired to do it.
In the beginning, I rambled on my blog A LOT. I did it to gain readers for my books (after all, that's what the publishers said to do), but once I got started, the more I enjoyed it and had something to say.
Then cancer hit. Ever since getting better, I've been feeling overwhelmed with life. I can't do enough! And I wonder how anything got done when I was so sick.
Which brings on the following thoughts. As many of you know, I beat my cancer with a vitamin. Plain and simple. Vitamin B17. I was so blown away with the simplicity of it, I had to share the news with one and all! And I did! I started a blog about it, made some YouTube videos about it, and told as many people as I could. In fact, I thought I was finally living up to my name. The name "Sandi" means "Helper and Defender of Mankind." Despite all these highs and hopes for saving lives, I'm feeling rather down ... discouraged.
Why am I discouraged? Because Vitamin B17 isn't healing EVERYONE. Even when they do all the "right things." Why is that, Lord? Why? I've been asking Him that a lot lately. Then it occurred to me.
God has all our days numbered. Job 14:5 "A person's days are determined; You have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed."
This made me realize . . . yes, God used B17 to heal me, but really and foremost, it was GOD who healed me. I mean, I KNEW this already, but did I really know it was ALL Him? He wasn't ready for me to come home yet. I did ask Him to promise me something if He did take me away from here. I made Him promise me that He'd find someone who would love my kids as much as I do and get them to heaven in the end. Well, He let me live, so I got my answer. I was the best one for my kids, even when I thought I wasn't. But that's another subject.
Allow me to repeat something important here: GOD let me live. Sure, He may have used B17 to do it, but when it comes down to it, HE saved my life! He gave me more time on this planet, just like He did for Hezekiah (Isaiah 38:5 and 2 Kings 20:6). He gave him 15 more years to live (and then Hezekiah blew it; I can't tell you how much I pray I don't end up like him in the end).
Anyway, I just can't help but give God the glory He DESERVES, and I fear I haven't done enough of that. I had two different individuals (when I first got better) say I was giving this vitamin more glory than I was God for my survival. The fact that TWO DIFFERENT people approached me with this should have made me realize that I wasn't giving God enough of the glory. Don't get me wrong, I always believed HE saved me, but I also put too much faith in this vitamin that's not working for everyone. Plain and simple. I should be spreading the gospel of salvation the way I've been spreading the "gospel" of vitamin B17!! Wouldn't that be a much better calling? To get excited about God's ETERNAL salvation for mankind?
God, I love You. Please forgive me for not giving You the total glory. Help me to be pleasing to You. Help me to calm down and rest in You. In Jesus' Name. Amen. I love You, Lord!
Well said and I have to say, you are living up to your name with this post! :) Love you!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you, little sis! I love you too!!!
DeleteThank you for your voice and your heart. God was the one but it took your knowing that for it to sink into your soul..we humans are slow sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI am happy that you are so much better and telling others.
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Paula, it's so nice to see you're still here! Thank you! xxx
DeleteSweet article! I knew that God was your healer all along and He just had a helper called Vitamin B 17, as your companion on the journey. ☺ Your story is a wonderful inspiration to so many! Is your cure-companion the same for other's journey? We are all made different and so the results will be different. But ultimately, God directs the results. Thanks again for sharing your deepest feelings. ☺
ReplyDeleteThank you, Susan. You're right. We're all made differently. What may help one person, may not help another. I'm just confused because according to Dr. Krebs Jr., B17 should work on ALL cancers. sigh But like you said, God directs the results. He's the One in charge. xxx
DeleteI ALWAYS enjoy anything you write because it usually hits me square between the eyes--and I thank you for that! God uses us all differently and yours is through words--I love words, as you do, and I relate to you on so many levels--thank you again for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Janice! I'm so glad you were encouraged. xxx
DeleteShalom Sandi, thanks for showing by your article thats its important to give God THE Glory. Marjolein vos, netherlands
ReplyDeleteThank you! xxx
DeleteSandi, Glad that you are still doing very well. And that no new blog posts = Sandi is healthy and enjoying life!!
ReplyDeleteYes! Thank you! I'm even behind on replying to comments.
DeleteSandi, both my mom & I were diagnosed last Oct 3 days apart. I believe we are already healed in Jesus name but we must help our bodies get healthier.
ReplyDeleteI will purchase the B17 along with the other supplements you mentioned but U am have trouble finding the right pancreatic enzymes.. You mentioned WobenzymN but which one there are so many different ones.
Please be more specific so we can try to beat cancer too.
God bless you and thank you for all the inspiration and courage you displayed. It I very scary to be battling this but Jesus Christ is our Lord & Saviour and our trust, hope and confidence reats completely in him. Amen!
The only "brand" of WobenzymN is just that. I took the highest dose it suggested to take. Sorry I can't be of more help. There's only one WobenzymN that I know of. I doesn't say "pancreatic enzymes" on the box, but that's what it is. Read the back of it under its "ingredients."
DeleteMy name didnt post correctly when i adding my question. My mom n I were diagnosed with cancer last Pct 3days apart.Please email me back at luv2twilight@live.com thanks
ReplyDeleteMy name didnt post correctly when i adding my question. My mom n I were diagnosed with cancer last Pct 3days apart.Please email me back at luv2twilight@live.com thanks
ReplyDeleteThank you for replying Sandi. I did find the WobenzymN, thanks. I am taking B17 (500 mg) 4 times a day with the B15 (300 mg), & Zinc Citrate
ReplyDelete(50mg). I feel fine taking that dose but my mom has low blood pressure and when she takes the B17, she gets extremely tired. She only had 1 month of radiation n chemo pills but after she did that she got a very bad cold that knocked her defenses way down. I thought she wasn't going to make it but she is slowly gaining strength. She was diagnosed with Stage IV Colon cancer with Mets to kidney n maybe liver. My question is she can only take,2 pills of B17 (500 mg) a day and takes ginseng but she is still getting exhausted, tired n without energy. Is this normal? I have her taking vit C, & Vit B powders daily plus we are getting B 12 shots weekly too. However we just aren't feeling any effects of that yet. Oh I also have her on 8 oz of a mega liquid all natural non synthetic vitams called Mother Earth's labs, the "PH Red Akalizing formula". Normal people only need 1 oz daily but we need 8-10 oz to help build our immune system back up. I don't understand why she is still So tired? She does suffer from alot of pain , so this tires her out alot. Then whatever she eats, she has to run to restroom almost immediately Si this tires her out too. Plus, she also eats 3 bitter seeds per HR about 10-12 a day. What else can I give her so she doesn't get so tired when she takes the Vit B 17? Thanks for your help!! God bless you for giving us hope!! To God be ALL the Glory!!
I don't know what's making her so tired, other than the chemo having completely weakened her body. When I was on chemo I too was extremely tired, so much so I couldn't even find the strength to undress for bed, or even dress myself in the morning. When I was "strong" and managed to take a shower, I'd have to go to bed as soon as I got out. I also had to use the bathroom A LOT, and nearly had numerous accidents. Please remember, I'm not a doctor, so I really can't say why she's struggling so much. This is just my assumption. But I really don't "know." I'm sorry I can't be of more help. ~Blessings, Sandi
DeleteBTW, I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer 3 cm tumor left breast, with one lymph node suspicious
ReplyDeleteBut believing God has already healed us!!
Sounds like a little less cancer than I had, and the B17 still worked, so I have high hopes it will work for you as well. Praying it does for both you and your mother! xxx
DeleteI have always kept up with you Sandi. Keep posting. Your messages are needed. My daughter, Cindy, has had two clear Cat scans since her two stage four surgeries. God has blessed her, her four children and her husband, along with the rest of us. Kay
DeleteKay, I'm so happy to hear about your daughter! Thank you for sharing the good news!
DeleteI give God the glory for your life, writing ministry, your healing testimony especially for this blog post that I am commenting on. It is a wonderful thing to recognize and acknowledge (especially publicly) that GOD ALONE DESERVES ALL THE GLORY!!!! I pray that God will continue to strengthen your writing ministry. I have been blessed by your books... I bought and read them all. Keep running YOUR race, dearly beloved sister in Christ.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind and loving words. xxx
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Hi Sandi, I saw your video and read your story in how you beat cancer. Can I ask you when u consumed B17, B15, and enzyme, did you on diet too? Or avoiding some food? Or using budwig protocol? Pls let me know. Thank u
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