Friday, January 21, 2011

Discouraged

My pupils are different sizes. I finally figured out it's the MS! My vision is blurred in the eye where the pupil is enlarged. Here's a link where you can read more about it: http://ms.about.com/od/signssymptoms/f/ms_apd.htm.

I go in on Tuesday for more chemo. My oncologist really needs to work together with my neurologist. I mean, how can they treat both cancer and MS?! ARG!

Also, my dizziness is increasing because of the lovely intestinal infection I have that was caused by all the antibiotics I've been on (the vertigo is also the MS, grrrr), and the expensive drugs I got for it aren't working. I'm actually getting worse. sigh

I can also feel my tumor "doing something." I only felt these twinges when it was growing, so I'm a little nervous about this. While it was shrinking, I felt nothing.

And lastly, my book is up for discussion on the ACFW Book Club loop, but it's awfully quiet over there. http://groups.yahoo.com/group/acfwbookclub/

Just trying not to worry . . . sigh.

Dear God, I praise You because You were, You are, and You always will be. You are my Father, and You are sovereign. You reign over me and those who are treating me. I commit myself into Your hands. Thank You that I may be Your daughter. Please hold me close and take away my fear.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.

6 comments:

  1. God grant you peace of mind and the assurance of his power. I pray you are able to lay your concerns in his capable hands.

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  2. May the Lord fight for you today and with His mighty hand slay the enemies that rage war in your body. May He be your rock and fortress, your hiding place.....May you cast all your cares on Him because He does care about you...many blessings

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  3. Praying for you:) God has not given you the spirit of fear, but of power, love, and sound mind. You are going be alright in the mighty name of Jesus.

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  4. Thank you everyone for all your encouraging comments. Bless you! xxx

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  5. So sorry you're having a discouaging time Sandi. My prayer is that God will let you see a rainbow while you're standing in the midst of the rain! Guess you're getting that chance to praise Him even when it doesn't feel like a "praise moment". Love your prayer, and I agree with it! Amen!
    Love ya, Sue
    P.S. I would totally be involved with the discussion on the loop but Mom just sent the book on to me. Should arrive later this week. Hopefully, I can get in on a bit of the discussion before the month is over. So excited to read it!!

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